My goodness this has been a weird Summer in Comic Book Internet huh? This Summer was a little rough on me as a lot of the time I’ve been off and on sick and I think I was suffering from some hard burn out on the current state of things lately. Comic Book Internet has been a ride over the past few months and beyond. The way things were operating within the sphere of comic book internet and leaving me to re-evaluate what I like in comics in general. I had a period recently where I was buying books but not reading as much as I should. Meaning I was starting to feel a sense of burnout with comics, that’s not a good thing. I give to you all sort of my mindset into comic book internet lately. Sit back, this is a ride. A very wild ride indeed.
I will be amazed if anyone can end up reading this ramble on Comic Book Internet easily. This comes off rambling in my own mind too.
I’ve been around in Comic Book Internet for a long time and like I tell people, I stumbled into it. Learned most of what I know within the sphere of things by learning on the fly to be blunt. Didn’t really figure out what I was doing writing wise until I got involved with Comics Crux. I always say Comics Crux was where I had the most fun writing wise as that was my most active period online. Rhymes with Geek being a close second as near the end of that site I was having an absolute blast writing wise. In the midst of this the past bit or so I was really planning on doing way more with my own site here. Then along the way I lost focus in my own writing. That’s a brutal thing to admit too. I lost focus.
Strange to say but I didn’t know where I really fit into the scheme of things anymore. I’m not that old yet but I’m not the wide eyed and bushy tailed soul I once was. I’m still me and I’m still liking what I like but there was a disconnect. I felt disconnected to a lot of the comic book scene as of late. It’s the sense of being around but yet not really feeling part of anything. Which then lead to me just not really writing and not having that fire to write much at all on Comic Books or at least struggle to get words out. Outside quick twitter blasts and so forth and podcasting, trying to talk comics got rougher for me. I guess you can say, it stopped being fun. That’s even more brutal to admit.
I know I’m formatting this in my usual format but this is rough to write this piece. Raw as anything I’ve written in a long time.
When I wrote something on Secret Empire in my word processor and it may never see the light of day but it felt good to write. It felt nice to just write my thoughts on something and let it out, even if likely it would only be me reading it initially. In my time away from things I have been reading books and itching to get back into things. Yet before my Secret Empire blather I couldn’t get the firepower to complete much of anything. In writing two small reviews, I didn’t feel like it had that same energy you know? I remember last year when I was starting to do the issue by issue stuff of series and I had fun with it. Then I lost focus and faded off into something else. You’ll note losing focus is a theme here.
In turn with my own writing I started getting hit with minor but yet annoying health crap but absorbed my mind. It bothered me and put my mind in another place. Even as I got better and getting better from the health crap, I still felt lost. It was writing an Amazon review for my friend Heather Ness and her book Broken Heroes that started to bring me to life. It felt good writing a simple Amazon review and also doing something cool for a friend. She asked me to review this and that she wanted my opinion made me happy. In reading her thoughts about the people who make up the Defenders, I fully admit to tearing up a couple times. When you’re on an emotional rollercoaster in writing, you never know what hits you.
Losing focus and being on an emotional rollercoaster are two major themes here it seems.
I realized that why my stuff at Comics Crux felt so effortless at times is it felt like a family. A great group of writers and an editor who rocks and is still my friend to this day. I think if it wasn’t for Jess being my editor back then, I would have run screaming years ago. Then Rhymes with Geek happened right after the end of Comics Crux and I never took the time to grieve the loss of that site. I was on to the next thing by sheer force of someone asking me to join a site a period where I felt lost in the midst of writing. Oh, I was still writing but some of that stuff in the early days was rough. Then by the end of Rhymes with Geek, it was a lot of fun, then the site ended. It gets weird from there.
Within my own headspace I felt that while my writing is as strong as ever, the level of disconnect shows at times. If you know me and see when I am writing something that I am writing just to write it, it shows and it is brutal. Anyone that knows me well that reads this is probably going to tell me I’m being hard on myself. It’s a gift though as they say as you are your own harshest critic. The past few months I’ve not been feeling it writing wise and now I think I’m game to dive back into things again. Maybe the universe is telling me that I need to focus more time on my own stuff again. I need to embrace the fun of my Comic Book Internet universe and talk about what I am passionate in.
Now this is where the fun begins, this is where the hope for the future comes into play.
At my core I do like writing online and I love writing about pop culture and comic books. It’s something I will find I always like and you know I realize I still have something left in the tank. This guy isn’t running on empty yet that’s for sure. In having a chat with a new fan at random recently it also helped me realize that I do have some sort of fire left in me. It was cool as the fan was grabbing old comics and it made me smile at his enthusiasm for the medium. I needed that way more than I realized. That is what made me realize that now it is time for the real comeback of the Geek Who Landed on the Internet, Wesley Messer is going to live again online by golly.
Put it this way, prepare yourselves for a level of weird like no other. I’m going full bore into stuff that I’ve had on the back burner for way too long. Life is too short not to have fun with what you do and when you’ve been as lost as I have been, embracing fun is a good thing. My role in Comic Book Internet is really, I like fun, I like the weird, I like the strange, and now I’m feeling more like that again. I’ve been raring to go off and on but then I lose that fire just as fast but right now, I’m truly ready. It is time to embrace the awesome in comics again once more and for my writing to show it. I’m optimism, I’m light, and I’m not going to dwell in the darkness anymore. It’s time to have fun.
Bringing the fun back to Comic Book Internet, yeah I can dig that.
Prepare yourselves for a content blast like no other, I got a game plan and I have a lot of ideas as for what I want to do with this site. This was a rough post to write but I’m glad I did. Even if I’m writing this late at night in the midst of a sleepless adventure. Welcome to the World of Wesley Messer and my time as the Geek Who Landed. I’m back, I’m ready, and let the fun begin.